Poem: “People” by rainbownthedark

what do u do when your fuse runs out? when you’ve had all u can take and have taken everything without doubt. people pretend to be with you through thick and thin, but when you’ve reached your end, where r they then. they say don’t worry they will be there with you threw it all but then they leave when you begin to fall. all you can do is get back up and then, know that one day u will find that one true friend, one that will be there with you through thick and thin.

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Poem: “Thought” by rainbownthedark

what goes on inside my head, no one knows but i really dread. i cant help but to think where it all went wrong. how my life barely moves along. my thoughts scare me, sometimes even you but without my thoughts i cant be me, i cant be true. im different, not like all the rest. my thoughts make it hard for me to try to rest. alone i sit and wounder, why me? but as i sit, my thoughts take me on a sometimes long journey. its not completely bad but its never good, to be lost in my thoughts to be so miss understood. when will people try to consider how i feel inside,how the pain i feel kills me little by little as the days go by. so u thought that you had it ruff, just try my thoughts for a day. now that’s very freakin tough.

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Poem: “Love/Hate” by rainbownthedark

I fell for you but did not know how far of a fall i would actually go. Loving you is like a drug, im so addicted, so wantinig to feel ur warm hug. When i first saw you, you were like a dream. Wanting to hold my hand wanting us to stand out from all the rest. Its been awhile, i miss you like crazy. I loved you with all my heart but then you took it and ripped me apart. Our love didnt last like i wanted it to, but i know now that you were never true. You lied and cheated, you broke my heart. All i ever wanted was for us to never part. I try to hate you more than ne thing else, i try not to care or get in ur life but i still love you more than life. I never knew that love could hurt so much, that my heart could break without your touch. One day ill find someone new, hopefully i will find that person thats as great as you. And hopefully they wont be such a bitch and take my heart and rip it apart.  

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Poem: “Alone” by rainbownthedark

Alone at night, i sit and think. wondering why i want to go and drink. I wounder why i’m all alone. Did you ever try to stop and think that maybe i need your help or maybe just maybe i could use that drink. Being alone isn’t fun, its sad and depressing, i’m by myself, stuck in this hell, screaming for help. Wanting someone to free me, to get me out of this dark alone place.I wait for someone to want to reach out, but all waiting has done is caused me to doubt and shut everyone else out. I’m still waiting all alone, not knowing if i will ever find a true home. I have no one and nothing at all but i’m hoping that one day i can say that I’ve found somebody to spend all my days. So i finally wont be alone and hopefully i will find my one true home.

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Poem: “Bleed” by rainbownthedark

As i lay bleeding on the floor, i wounder what would of happened if i could of took some more. I’m slowly dieing, bleeding out, wondering and thinking about how i got to this point. My blood was blue but now is red as it pumps out my arm or maybe threw my head. If u don’t know just how i feel, then you didn’t know me, you  pretended that i wasn’t real. I’m sad, afraid and all alone. Wanting pleading for someone to help, rescue me from this hole. But no one will ever truly understand the pain and hurt inside of me. So i was laying bleeding on the floor dieing, but its to late to save me, so now i am dead.

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Poem: “Your Not Forgotten” by rainbownthedark

wishing and wanting, just waiting right here. hoping and praying to see u just appear. since you left i dont know what to do, i miss our talks and the times that we knew. u left without notice, u were takin away, why did it have to be that day. You left all of us without a single goodbye, most importantly u left all of us to sit and cry. we talked about problems and things that went on. when you died i took your advice, i got up and got out. but i still miss you so much without a doubt. You were and still are a lifelong friend that me and my mom will love till our end.

this poem is dedicated to Shirley Ann Mills, a great friend of me and my mom that past away on august 31, 2010. We still love and will always miss you.

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Poem: “Deadly Emotions” by rainbownthedark

im thinking of dying. death is at my door. i have visions of flying, flying off the roof dying on the floor. No one cares for me, i might as well be dead. I’m invisible to everyone everybody everywhere. I’m empty as can be, inside me theres nothing there. im all alone in the world, not a single friend, i have no one to care. no one to be there when im feeling blue, no one to say it will all be ok. we all have a book of life that we write on our own, but why did everyone cast me out and write my book while they left me all alone. my feelings are gone and my life has gone its pace. so all i have left to say is that one day ill be dead and never wake. then no one will still be there, no one to say or show that they ever did care.

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