im sitting here thinking about what all has gone wrong, thinking about what i should of done all along. what is wrong with me, bc i can not see. i wish i could change all the things that have happened so far, but i cant change any thing, that is whats so hard. where do i go from here threw all the pain and all the tears. there is alot to life that i havent figured out, maybe one day i will find out what it is all about. im not quite sure what im doing anymore, i need someone to help me, show me the right path or just show me a door. i wish things where clear and not so cloudy in my mind, i really feel like i was left behind. is there not a reason im just sitting here thinking these thoughts? do i have a plan, a purpose, a reason i was brought to where i am now? all i keep thinking is how much has changed within the past year, all the things that have finally brought me here. whats next keeps popping up inside my head, whats next? whats next, the future i really dread. where will life take me, on this long journy that i have been on. when will i reach that point where i can finally see everything clear and finally forget all my fear. theres so much bottled up inside of me, so much that no one, that all of u can not see. maybe one day my life will be easy and not so hard, just maybe i will end up getting that far. but intill then i will find out what life has in store for me without a doubt.
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